One Little Lie
Never gave me the chance to accept or reject you based on the truth. You showed me that you wanted all of me just to get a part of me. Instead of telling me what you really wanted you told me what you thought I wanted so you could get what you really wanted. Based on your actions and words, for months I invested myself wholeheartedly and started giving you that special part of me. You pretended to be mentally and emotionally vested but you were only physically connected. It took me a while to digest this little lie that led me to living a life that was never mine. One little lie led to a light that I thought was bright, but now that I’m no longer blind I can see that it never really shined. I spent years begging and bargaining for time that was never really mine. I could feel my heart hardening as I pardoned you so many times. I don’t understand how a person could take another person through pain and never feel a thing. You faked an entire relationship and even talked about marriage and kids. You kept telling me whatever I wanted to hear so that you could stay around and continue to feel however you wanted to feel. One little lie allowed me to be immersed in a counterfeit love that was well coerced. The pain is real but it could have been worse. They say the truth always hurts. Only if the lie comes first.